Looking back at 2018
In 363 days it is 2020! Wait wait wait!!!!!! Mamma miaaa! But it just turned 2019. Yes, yes, I know. And three days ago it was only 2018. Yes, yes, yes, I did not miss that either. Ok ok. First things first. Happy new year! And happy first Thursday of 2019!
As I am drinking my coffee, enjoying the late morning and doing some admin work, I am trying to reflect on the past year - what happened? And more importantly - what did I learn?
To be honest, I think I learnt more in 2018 than I have the previous 23,5 years of my life (this means I am 24 years, 6 months and 1 week today). Since I write down basically everything I do, I could tell you everything I have done this past year, but I am not going to do that. I just want to share one experience.
During the autumn of 2018, I was exhausted. In this exhaustion I realized something sad. During the past year we had such beautiful seasons here in Norway. Winter was 200% winter with enormous amounts of snow everywhere and summer was 200% summer with 10 000 degrees and sun almost all the time. One season transformed into the next, and it was beautiful. But as the sun went down and autumn came leaving everything dark, I realized that I had not experienced any of it. Yes, I had seen the sun, the snow and the stages in between, but I had failed to experience them. It was as if I had failed to be part of the life I was living. I believe life is about more than what we do, what we achieve and the success we strive to accomplish. If our goals take us away from our humanity and leave us running for the next thing, if we do not even notice the fresh wind stroking our cheeks as we walk through life, and if we are eaten by the business of it all... what are we really doing?
I have many hopes and dreams for the future, and I am not going to throw them in the bin. However, I am going to allow them to be part of my life. I believe if my plans do not also allow me to be present in this very moment, they should probably be reevaluated. Our dreams and ambitions need to be rooted in who we are and our actual hopes for our future; not rooted in some idea of what could be the most successful thing to accomplish for some random stranger that we are not.
Conclusion? I am not sure I have any. I guess what I hope to do is to move through life, directed by my heart and driven by my love for people, the art and the beauty of my surroundings. I will probably do too much, and I might write this exact same thing in about a years time.... hahah.
I am looking forward to share more of my not-so-secret-freelance-dance-life with you all the next 362 days (++). Stay tuned for more writings in the future, but more importantly; stay tuned to your life, your dreams and the fresh wind stroking your cheeks as you walk through life.
Happy new year to all!